Tuesday, October 21, 2008

The God in Me (My personal vow)

He's sweet like sugar, spice, and everything nice.
But this is no longer enough to entice me out of my underwear ;)
I walk away, he stares, and I match his unwavering glare
But it's still not enough to entice me out of my underwear

You see I've taken a vow of celibacy
No it's not a promise of lifetime chastity
I just want that man to see God in me

I want him to look pass my curvy body
And, dare I say, sweet yoni ;)
And see God in me

I want him to look pass my wonderful feminity
And my oozing sexuality
And see God in me

I want him to know what I have between my knees
Is more precious than rubies

I want him to know what I harbor in my soul and mind
Is of the divine, and if he can't realize that
Then he is TRULY blind ;)

So, you can be sweet like sugar
Decadent like spice
And, oh so very nice
But that's not enough to entice me

Because I've taken a vow of celibacy
Not some lifetime chastity
I just want Him to see the God in me

Monday, September 22, 2008

My new Journey...

I've changed and grown so much since the last post. I've recently decided to become celibate (yaaay), for religious reasons. I've learned so much about myself and my relationship with God since the last post. At the beginning of the year, I made a New Year's Resolution contract with myself. I signed it and everything. But more importantly, I PRAYED. Prayed that I can honor it, prayed for the strength to acheive the things on this contract. One of the things on the contract was to get an internship; which I currently have. Another thing in this contract was to find a young AA female to mentor. Funny how God works, because my Godmother (who's just like a mom to me :)) started mentoring program at her church, and in order to be a mentor you had to be attend church, and study The Bible for yourself. This is relavent because in my Top 3 goals is the following:

TO PRACTICE PHYSICAL, MENTAL, AND SPIRITUAL DISCIPLINE

I didn't think about how all my goals were centered around God, but he's shown me by putting GOD first (who is all), my life will be better than I can ever imagine. With that, I've grown spiritually. Along with this spiritual growth, everything else fell into place. I'm now celibate until marriage. I've just started, been celibate for 3 months now. A friend told me to celebrate every 3 months! So I am. I see so much now that I've become celibate; I've been able to weed out all the losers. LOL...I pray that I continue to grow and do God's will. Until next time blogsphere! :)