Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I Realized...

What I'm going to say below is alll original, but the idea of listing what I've realized is from another persons blog (I can't remember who). So here it goes...


I realized...

That no matter how much I plan something always throws it off

In order to get what I want I need to work towards it

Even though I am a praying woman, and believe in a higher power, I cannot identify myself as a Christian (though I respect those that do)

The only competition I have in my life is ME

I can possibly become a computer game addict

I don't have to live in a box and my abilities are without limits

I can't blame others for my problems. Nope not even the Devil. (damn!)

I'm the only one that is responsible for my well being

I'm a very silly person

Being in my 20s doesn't give me the right to make dumb decisions

Sometimes I need to be away from certain people.

Other peoples habits can influence me (hence the above statement)

It's a good thing that I can't blow things up with my mind, or have super strength, or some other destructive power (because there would be a lot of missing people)

Lastly...

Life is what I make it. Live. Learn. Try not to Fuck it Up!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Could've Been the Perfect Love Story...

You've been acting different lately
Saying that you love me, calling me up and talking crazy
Making me feel restricted by your confession of love for me
And you say it with such conviction as if this came about so naturally

This would be the perfect love story if I felt the same
But unfortunately I don't and you're the one to blame

When we met you said you wanted to chill, and had no timef
or settling down
You thought I was "cool peoples" and figured we could fool around

I agreed to the arrangement, I must reluctantly confess
Honestly, I just liked the idea of having easy access

But how quickly things have changed
As we talked, laughed, and well...screwed
You began acting strange
You told me you loved me, and expect me
to say "I love you too!"
But I don't love YOU, I just love what we do :)
I don't love you how you love me and I damn sure ain't sorry
I think your just caught up in our sexual intensity
I find it sad that your so hurt, and I don't even feel guilty
Maybe if you knew what you know now
It could've worked out much differently

It probably would've been the perfect love story, if I felt the same
But, as you know, I don't, and you're the one to blame

You thought you would benefit the most from this deal
But instead you are broken hearted, how does that feel?
Not too good, as far as I can see
And it's still your fault
Hey don't get mad at me
You established this from the start

Because when you met me
All you saw was my body
Not my mind, not my smile, not even my personality
And what you offered was your body
Not your heart, not your mind, not your spirituality

Yeah you can say that feelings change to try and
justify how you grew to love me and why
But your intentions for me were clear in the beginning, and you know what
So was I

So it COULD'VE been the perfect love story
If you came correct initially
I just took what you offered and gave what you expected
You got what you wanted now just accept it :)