I am.....

Random musings. This is my manifestation rampage. Read, enjoy, ponder, and wonder.

I am.

I am abundance, I am powerful and limitless
The ability to create my reality comes quickly and easily
I am an artist, drawing my life one pen stroke at a time
I am peace, love, and joy
My natural vibration is of peace, love, joy, and abundance
When I'm not feeling those things I am not myself
Not being myself is unnatural
My power lies within, and regardless of the world around me I am LIMITLESS


My above "rambling" is what I use to reaffirm myself in my ability to create my reality through my choices and understanding of self. I'm in a place where I'm right at the edge, and I can see that I can achieve anything I want to achieve without boundaries. It can be difficult to REMEMBER that. It's not that I need to believe it. I do. I need to remember it. I need to remember through:

- Other peoples doubts, limitations, and beliefs.

I know those things shouldn't affect me but they do. I could be feeling on top of the world and someone gives me their limited view and then I choose to shrink down and try to think within THEIR parameters. I'm realizing that is a painful experience. Conforming yourself to someone else's limits? How crazy is that? When I start to feel that way, I think of something quite funny. Like bending my body to fit into a shoe box. That always makes me laugh and puts things into perspective.

- Self doubt

Not all of it comes from external forces. A lot of it is from within. I have to take an assessment of my awesomeness all the time. Be my own hype man. I've made to this point why wouldn't I be able to make it to the next step? The next level? The next job, hobby, business. Yes, I do this often because it works for me. I think more people should do it!


That's all I have for today. Until next time.

Peace.

Mirah Nirvana

Allow me to reintroduce myself...

My name is Mirah! Some people call me Miss Harvin? So much for anonymity. Ha, ok enough of that. So, I decided to start blogging again! Yay. Aren't you just bursting with joy? You should be!!! There wasn't much posted here to begin with, so here I am. I don't know how much of a stickler I will be on grammar, I'm basically typing this as if I'm having a casual conversation with someone. And by someone I mean YOU, the reader of this blog!

What will I blog about? Well, the usual self centered shit people usually blog! Weight loss journey, Napptural hair stuff, personal challenges, and random rants and outbursts about my oh-so-interesting life. May blog about friends, using quirky nicknames I'll give them. I promise to be more creative than my own pseudonym.

Stay tuned for more posts :)

New Year, New Goals, New Challenges :-D

Happy New Year! 2011 is here!

So. I have so many important things coming up this year. I start my MBA program at the end of this month, and I recently moved out of my dad's house. I'm on my own for the first time in my 23 years of living on this Earth. So far so good. I'm going to make it a point to blog more often then I have over the last 2-3 years I've had this blog. I've also made a list of goals to accomplish this year. Below is my list:

Goals to Accomplish in 2011

Fitness/ Physical Health

- I’m at my healthiest and my ideal weight. I maintain this way of living by eating a healthy pescetarian (soon to be vegetarian) diet, and exercising consistently.
- I’m able to run successfully in 5K and 10K races; by being consistent in training.
- My muscles are defined and I am a physically STRONG woman! I’m able to do this by lifting weights that challenge me.
- All my blood work test results are in normal range for someone my age. I can do this because I eat a healthy clean diet 90% of the time.
- I am full of energy and have more than enough to accomplish all the other goals on this list (lol)

Personal

- I am actively dating and being proactive about meeting new people; I accomplish this goal by trying new things like online dating, and attending events that may be out of my comfort zone.
- My friends are a positive influence in my life and are driven to succeed; I don’t attract negative people with lack of motivation.
- I continue to incorporate my awareness as a black queen and a spiritual being with no limitations in all aspects of my life
- I travel outside of the country at least once
- I volunteer often because I enjoy helping others

Home

- I maintain a clean home and car
- I am organized and everything has its place
- My home is a place of peace. Drama, danger, and turmoil do not exist here
- My home is filled with laughter, love, and peace
- I live in a safe space

Education/Career

- I maintain a 4.0 each semester of graduate school by studying the material and committing the necessary time to each class
- The experience I gain in my career will contribute to the success of owning my own business
- I will also meet people in school and through career related events that will contribute to my success in being an entrepreneur
- I will receive grants to pay for my MBA degree
- Both my education and my career will NOT be a chore, it will be enjoyable and something that I look forward to all the time.

Finance/Business

- I will continue to invest with an investment club, and use the knowledge gained to make investments on my own
- I will decide what type of business I would like to own and make a business plan by the end of 2011
- I will start to save money towards that business beginning 2011.
- I will continue to save money for emergencies
- I don’t have any finance troubles because I am financially responsible and I am investing wisely.

I'm going to do my best to blog about the different things I'm doing to accomplish the goals on this list. So, be on the look out for posts documenting how I accomplished these goals! :-)

Training for a 5K through C25K program; Weight Training NROLFW

So, I decided to give another go at the Couch 2 5K program, after meeting with some nappturals a few weeks ago. I've started this program twice. This is the third try. Today will be Week 2 Day 2 for me. So far so good. The difference between this time and my past attempts, is that I actually signed up for a 5K!!! So I mean business!

My 5K race is on December 12, 2010. That doesn't give me enough time to complete the program, but I figured by that time I should be able to hold my own in a 5K race. I'll sign up for another one after I complete the program to improve my time. My goal for this race is to finish in under 45min. I think its doable since my last run (Week 2 Day 1) I did 2.33 miles in 30min. That's only week 2!

My goal is to workout 5 days a week. Three of those days are dedicated to training for the 5K and the other two days are for weight training. I'm following a program in a book called New Rules of Lifting for Women. It's a great book! The workouts are quick and effective. Unfortunately, I haven't been good about keeping up with them. But that changes now.

My diet, well, it could be MUCH better. I need to start drinking shakes! Those are quick, easy, and nutritional. Also being a pescetarian, makes things quite interesting when trying to keep things interesting (and healthy) in the kitchen. All in all, I see it as a great challenge!

Back to Blogging...

Man, it's been forever since I've posted here. I'm getting back to it, even if nobody reads!

Ok, so I'm starting my MBA program January 2011. Yay! Trying to purchase a home, which is more involved than I anticipated, and just trying to get into better shape. In other words, I'm all over the place.

I'll be better about blogging though. I'll be blogging about school, working out, and the home buying process. Well, and any other thing that catches my interest. So, be on the look out for more posts :-D

I Realized...

What I'm going to say below is alll original, but the idea of listing what I've realized is from another persons blog (I can't remember who). So here it goes...


I realized...

That no matter how much I plan something always throws it off

In order to get what I want I need to work towards it

Even though I am a praying woman, and believe in a higher power, I cannot identify myself as a Christian (though I respect those that do)

The only competition I have in my life is ME

I can possibly become a computer game addict

I don't have to live in a box and my abilities are without limits

I can't blame others for my problems. Nope not even the Devil. (damn!)

I'm the only one that is responsible for my well being

I'm a very silly person

Being in my 20s doesn't give me the right to make dumb decisions

Sometimes I need to be away from certain people.

Other peoples habits can influence me (hence the above statement)

It's a good thing that I can't blow things up with my mind, or have super strength, or some other destructive power (because there would be a lot of missing people)

Lastly...

Life is what I make it. Live. Learn. Try not to Fuck it Up!

Could've Been the Perfect Love Story...

You've been acting different lately
Saying that you love me, calling me up and talking crazy
Making me feel restricted by your confession of love for me
And you say it with such conviction as if this came about so naturally

This would be the perfect love story if I felt the same
But unfortunately I don't and you're the one to blame

When we met you said you wanted to chill, and had no timef
or settling down
You thought I was "cool peoples" and figured we could fool around

I agreed to the arrangement, I must reluctantly confess
Honestly, I just liked the idea of having easy access

But how quickly things have changed
As we talked, laughed, and well...screwed
You began acting strange
You told me you loved me, and expect me
to say "I love you too!"
But I don't love YOU, I just love what we do :)
I don't love you how you love me and I damn sure ain't sorry
I think your just caught up in our sexual intensity
I find it sad that your so hurt, and I don't even feel guilty
Maybe if you knew what you know now
It could've worked out much differently

It probably would've been the perfect love story, if I felt the same
But, as you know, I don't, and you're the one to blame

You thought you would benefit the most from this deal
But instead you are broken hearted, how does that feel?
Not too good, as far as I can see
And it's still your fault
Hey don't get mad at me
You established this from the start

Because when you met me
All you saw was my body
Not my mind, not my smile, not even my personality
And what you offered was your body
Not your heart, not your mind, not your spirituality

Yeah you can say that feelings change to try and
justify how you grew to love me and why
But your intentions for me were clear in the beginning, and you know what
So was I

So it COULD'VE been the perfect love story
If you came correct initially
I just took what you offered and gave what you expected
You got what you wanted now just accept it :)