I choose me...

My ex wants to be my friend. I don't want him in my life. At first, I thought it was b/c I was still heart broken. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized it was b/c the cost of having him in my life was too great. In exchange of having him as my friend, I will be losing me. I feel that way b/c I know, in my heart, that our friendship will be a parisitic relationship. I have proven time and time again that I can be a loyal girlfriend and friend, and he has taken advantage of it. I can't risk it anymore. I won't allow it. Parasite's feed off of their host until the host dies. I don't think a friendship should come down to losing your life b/c you care about someone. I do still care and love him. But my love for him won't make him love himself, and my love for him doesn't outweigh the love I have for me. I changed my myspace headline to, "Some ppl don't realize that they are in a box until they step outside of it...." This is the realization I've had with my life. For a person that claims to have love of self, I was making decisions to harm myself. I stayed with this person knowing that he was causing me spiritual harm, and I gave him the power to do so. Now I realize that I need to take control of me and practice true self love. That means taking that power that belongs to me, and saying goodbye that which causes me harm.