Wednesday, February 6, 2013
I am abundance, I am powerful and limitless
The ability to create my reality comes quickly and easily
I am an artist, drawing my life one pen stroke at a time
I am peace, love, and joy
My natural vibration is of peace, love, joy, and abundance
When I'm not feeling those things I am not myself
Not being myself is unnatural
My power lies within, and regardless of the world around me I am LIMITLESS
My above "rambling" is what I use to reaffirm myself in my ability to create my reality through my choices and understanding of self. I'm in a place where I'm right at the edge, and I can see that I can achieve anything I want to achieve without boundaries. It can be difficult to REMEMBER that. It's not that I need to believe it. I do. I need to remember it. I need to remember through:
- Other peoples doubts, limitations, and beliefs.
I know those things shouldn't affect me but they do. I could be feeling on top of the world and someone gives me their limited view and then I choose to shrink down and try to think within THEIR parameters. I'm realizing that is a painful experience. Conforming yourself to someone else's limits? How crazy is that? When I start to feel that way, I think of something quite funny. Like bending my body to fit into a shoe box. That always makes me laugh and puts things into perspective.
- Self doubt
Not all of it comes from external forces. A lot of it is from within. I have to take an assessment of my awesomeness all the time. Be my own hype man. I've made to this point why wouldn't I be able to make it to the next step? The next level? The next job, hobby, business. Yes, I do this often because it works for me. I think more people should do it!
That's all I have for today. Until next time.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
What will I blog about? Well, the usual self centered shit people usually blog! Weight loss journey, Napptural hair stuff, personal challenges, and random rants and outbursts about my oh-so-interesting life. May blog about friends, using quirky nicknames I'll give them. I promise to be more creative than my own pseudonym.
Stay tuned for more posts :)
Friday, January 14, 2011
Friday, November 5, 2010
My 5K race is on December 12, 2010. That doesn't give me enough time to complete the program, but I figured by that time I should be able to hold my own in a 5K race. I'll sign up for another one after I complete the program to improve my time. My goal for this race is to finish in under 45min. I think its doable since my last run (Week 2 Day 1) I did 2.33 miles in 30min. That's only week 2!
My goal is to workout 5 days a week. Three of those days are dedicated to training for the 5K and the other two days are for weight training. I'm following a program in a book called New Rules of Lifting for Women. It's a great book! The workouts are quick and effective. Unfortunately, I haven't been good about keeping up with them. But that changes now.
My diet, well, it could be MUCH better. I need to start drinking shakes! Those are quick, easy, and nutritional. Also being a pescetarian, makes things quite interesting when trying to keep things interesting (and healthy) in the kitchen. All in all, I see it as a great challenge!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
That no matter how much I plan something always throws it off
In order to get what I want I need to work towards it
Even though I am a praying woman, and believe in a higher power, I cannot identify myself as a Christian (though I respect those that do)
The only competition I have in my life is ME
I can possibly become a computer game addict
I don't have to live in a box and my abilities are without limits
I can't blame others for my problems. Nope not even the Devil. (damn!)
I'm the only one that is responsible for my well being
I'm a very silly person
Being in my 20s doesn't give me the right to make dumb decisions
Sometimes I need to be away from certain people.
Other peoples habits can influence me (hence the above statement)
It's a good thing that I can't blow things up with my mind, or have super strength, or some other destructive power (because there would be a lot of missing people)
Life is what I make it. Live. Learn. Try not to Fuck it Up!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Saying that you love me, calling me up and talking crazy
Making me feel restricted by your confession of love for me
And you say it with such conviction as if this came about so naturally
This would be the perfect love story if I felt the same
But unfortunately I don't and you're the one to blame
When we met you said you wanted to chill, and had no timef
or settling down
You thought I was "cool peoples" and figured we could fool around
I agreed to the arrangement, I must reluctantly confess
Honestly, I just liked the idea of having easy access
But how quickly things have changed
As we talked, laughed, and well...screwed
You began acting strange
You told me you loved me, and expect me
to say "I love you too!"
But I don't love YOU, I just love what we do :)
I don't love you how you love me and I damn sure ain't sorry
I think your just caught up in our sexual intensity
I find it sad that your so hurt, and I don't even feel guilty
Maybe if you knew what you know now
It could've worked out much differently
It probably would've been the perfect love story, if I felt the same
But, as you know, I don't, and you're the one to blame
You thought you would benefit the most from this deal
But instead you are broken hearted, how does that feel?
Not too good, as far as I can see
And it's still your fault
Hey don't get mad at me
You established this from the start
Because when you met me
All you saw was my body
Not my mind, not my smile, not even my personality
And what you offered was your body
Not your heart, not your mind, not your spirituality
Yeah you can say that feelings change to try and
justify how you grew to love me and why
But your intentions for me were clear in the beginning, and you know what
So was I
So it COULD'VE been the perfect love story
If you came correct initially
I just took what you offered and gave what you expected
You got what you wanted now just accept it :)